Present For Myself
I am realizing now that I'm my own worst enemy, my own brain fighting myself and never truly allowing myself to be in the moment. I am forever worried about what hasn't been done, what needs to be done, what I'm forgetting to do. In the meantime I don't let myself and sometimes even those around me enjoy what we are doing right then. So this year I'm going to try and give myself a Christmas present. I'm going to allow myself to be present.
The world won't end if the house isn't pristine on Christmas morning. I shouldn't feel any less joy or feel any worse about myself if I don't complete everything on my to do list. I am here. I have a wonderful husband, daughters, family and am blessed with so much more than most. Begrudging myself the happiness in that knowledge isn't what I need to make sure the world, my world, turns at the proper tilt.
It's tiresome telling yourself you aren't enough and haven't done enough. So I will do what I can and I'm going to take the time to enjoy what I am and the blessings I have around me.
Good morning Monday.
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